Yeah I live and breathe still, I just forget to check back in here and when I do I don't feel motivated to post anything. I have been in a sort of creative bind, I am working creatively but I can't always share what is taking all my time because it is for someone else...

you: "oh so you come back, you update your journal, post no new aret and you're not going to tell us squat?"

me : "yeah pretty much... " " sorry... heh"

I mean I'll probably update something and it may be soon it just depends and time allowance.
I have so many random projects going but all of them I kinda fizzled out on and none of them are really in any sort of finish form and none of them scream quality in my opinion.

I feel like I"ve been sapped of all my motivation, its a very shitty feeling. I want to yell at myself to fucking get over it but that technique hasn't been going well.

I think this all has to do with not having a proper direction to channel my energy.
this morning I wanted to make tea and there is no milk. so peeved.

I will prevail though, I know this little rut is only temporary. just gotta ride it out.